Taking My Identity, Losing My Sexuality: A Trans Exploration of Sex

“It was like… that big I guess?” says a friend of mine with a gesture I can only assume, the words crawling through the huge gap on the bottom of my bedroom door.

“That’s pretty big actually! So what did you guys, like… do?” asks my roommate. I lie in bed eavesdropping against my will under a thin comforter and two heavy, furry blankets that barely block out the chill of my apartment bedroom. It’s barely 11 but I’m tucked in bed already, watching YouTube like I usually do until I can barely keep my eyes open. I…